In between my last chapter and this one was to be an oath to humanity. But at the moment and to no fault but my own, do i feel super disconnected to people. Like a hermit crab, where they are totally cool with other hermit crabs but they very much enjoy hanging solo in their shell. Laymen’s Terms I love my people, I truly do, but every now and then I get stuck in my own self.
This will be short and sweet and right to the point. When you find yourself, like me, lost in your own thoughts try and find the reason you got there. For me, when I get lost it stems from being hurt. I tend to obsess about the hurt that I am unable to be my true self. A good friend, girlfriend, daughter, dog mom, worker, etc. In me I really am those things, I hope, but when I am hurt I forget. I shut down, crawling back into my shell.
Why am I writing this? So I can try to get out of my shell more often. To rememeber that as much as my own life is personal other people’s opinions or actions towards me are not personal. They are defense mechanisms to their own “personal” shit. So when a person tells you to stop taking things personal. Tell them you cannot. You will not be less of a person. But what you and I can do is listen. Listen to what is really happening. Why are we hurting each other? Why am I allowing the hurt to close me off from those who have not hurt me. Let us talk more about our internal issues. Let us be personal together.
So humanity, do you accept my apology? I am sorry for my distance. I needed to use this time to really figure out where I was going and if I was worthy enough for you to follow me. I hope that I still am. I hope that you see that I am trying to balance my want to share and my need to be private. Bare with me!
Love more, Peace More and Roar more.
Your Wild Spirit Guide,