Dear Twenties

I am sorry to have to bid you farewell
Our time together has come to an end. 
You have done nothing wrong; 
“It’s not you, It’s me.”

Ten years ago today I turned 20. Life seemed so simple; a giant playground, I was finally getting access to. College was just a place I would smoke pot in the parking lot. Man, I really should’ve just went to class. Fun was the motto of the Decade. (How much fun would a nun shun had she no churchmen) With limited resources I pretty much did whatever I wanted. A leader of my own revolution. But who was I against? Age? Reality? Life?

Nothing You did ever steered me wrong. 
I loved hard, laughed plenty, climbed mountains.
Together we witnessed life & mourned death. 
You graced me with another day, everyday. 

My twenties social life was a constant orgy of conversations. Maybe because I spent most of it on drugs that kept me on top of the rollercoaster balancing between what is up and what will go down. We lived in the bathroom night clubs. Exchanging stories. Learning from all various eccentric individuals I’ve met. Loving every person that came my way. Having my heart broken by every person that came my way. It was a beautiful life. 

It’s been ten years to the date. 
I fear it is too late to get you back.

Now it’s time to put those memories in a box. Saving them for a rainy day. Allowing me to make space for another ten. A more responsible life might be what’s ahead but knowing me it’ll just be more adventure. We will ever know where in the world is Carmen SanDiego?

Thank you my sweet twenties. You have made me a warrior. For what is next is more to come. 

Love More, Peace More and Roar More.

Love  your now Thirty Year Old, 

Spirit Guide,


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  1. Tee

    February 4, 2019 at 9:35 am

    Happy Birthday baby! Thank you for letting me be a part of yours 20s now on to experience a new different adventure of life in your 30s.

    You warrior, love you.

  2. Stacie

    February 6, 2019 at 4:41 pm

    Happy birthday! I love the idea of giving yourself a goodbye letter to a decade that’s come and gone. I hope the next one is just as great for you!

  3. Chad

    February 6, 2019 at 6:51 pm

    Very happy birthday to you! Your 30s are going to be even better! You must be super excited.


  4. Alexandra

    February 6, 2019 at 9:41 pm

    Happy birthday to you! I really enjoyed reading about your 20s, and I think this a great idea for when you are moving into a new phase 🙂

  5. Lyosha

    February 6, 2019 at 10:32 pm

    Happy Birthday! Your 20s were a blast and your 30s will be even better. I am proud of you, you are a wonderful person!

  6. Lydia Smith

    February 7, 2019 at 8:17 am

    Happy birthday. Cheers to wonderful years ahead. And this tribute… I’m saving it for myself when I clock 30. I also need a tribute to my 20s.

  7. Elena Toma

    February 7, 2019 at 10:22 am

    Don’t worry about the 30’s, life would be even better and you will still have a lot of fun !

  8. John Mulindi

    February 7, 2019 at 12:11 pm

    Thanks for sharing your story with us. Each stage in life is like an adventure. You learn and discover new things as you live.

  9. Sakshi

    February 7, 2019 at 2:46 pm

    Hair birthday you! That is such a week written article. You are so gracefully strong into a new zone in life. Stay blessed 🙂

  10. Becca Talbot

    February 7, 2019 at 5:54 pm

    Welcome to the 30s club! It’s not so bad, I promise x

  11. Katie

    February 7, 2019 at 6:34 pm

    The 20’s is definite a unique experience that comes to an end. It’s an opportunity to learn and grow too.

  12. Sara Welch

    February 7, 2019 at 7:07 pm

    Welcome to the best years of your life! It can be a hard transition, but it seems like you’ve welcomed it well! Happy Birthday!

  13. Catherine Santiago Jose

    February 8, 2019 at 12:44 am

    Such an amazing and hilarious story, I know every of it is worth it. You have a wonderful life that’s full of memories to remember and cherish.

  14. Preet

    February 8, 2019 at 1:04 am

    Happy Birthday to you! We can’t really imagine how time goes by. Thinking that you are 20 and now I am 30. There are more things coming your way as you grow older.

  15. Monidipa Dutta

    February 8, 2019 at 10:51 am

    Happy birthday, dear. I am 25 so I feel you..

  16. natalie

    February 8, 2019 at 11:18 am

    Ah i love this – i am not far from hitting my 40’s! But I honestly will never forget my 20’s!

  17. Shannon Gurnee

    February 8, 2019 at 1:06 pm

    I miss my twenties. It’s hard to believe I’ll be 40 in just a few months. Hope you had a Happy Birthday!

  18. Nicole Bertrand

    February 8, 2019 at 8:55 pm

    Just wait until you’re saying goodbye to your 30s!! Wahhhh!

  19. Chelle Dizon

    February 8, 2019 at 11:37 pm

    Good to hear that you enjoyed your twenties. I wish you a blessed and healthy life. Happy happy Birthday!

  20. Chastity

    February 10, 2019 at 12:12 am

    Happy Birthday! You will love your 30’s it’s the best years that will allow you to become more independent in your own wants and desires.

  21. Cherry

    February 24, 2019 at 1:48 pm

    Im next hahaa !! What beautiful read . Very poem ish I love it . Cheers to another 20 years! Love u mana !

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